*screaming*
25 Mar 2020 13:58![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
extrapenguinSo! Worldcon got made virtual-only, because staying at home to wake up in the middle of the night and chat to people over Skype is everyone's best idea of fun!
Cancel everything! Cancel all the plans! Cancel everything that anyone ever anticipated! Cancel the ability to plan for the future, because who needs predictability?????
(Local autist deals badly with plans changing, surprising absolutely no-one else!)
All my big-ticket plans have been thrown in the trash! I have not touched another human being for, like, 3 weeks! How do I feel about that? I have no fucking clue! (Alexithymia is frequently a part of autism, and boy do I have it. Why am I crying/giggling hysterically/screaming on the floor? Maybe I'm experiencing an emotion, but I have no idea what! O all-knowing Google, please enlighten me, what do normal people feel when they're doing this???)
I have never been okay in my life. I am I guess at most 30 minutes away from freaking out while cackling on the floor under the best of circumstances! Why do I need to feign sanity now? Everything has been cancelled! Cancel sanity along with all the other shit! Fuck life! Fuck everything! I hate staring at walls and want my comforting routines and nice things to look forward to back!
*screams*
Cancel everything! Cancel all the plans! Cancel everything that anyone ever anticipated! Cancel the ability to plan for the future, because who needs predictability?????
(Local autist deals badly with plans changing, surprising absolutely no-one else!)
All my big-ticket plans have been thrown in the trash! I have not touched another human being for, like, 3 weeks! How do I feel about that? I have no fucking clue! (Alexithymia is frequently a part of autism, and boy do I have it. Why am I crying/giggling hysterically/screaming on the floor? Maybe I'm experiencing an emotion, but I have no idea what! O all-knowing Google, please enlighten me, what do normal people feel when they're doing this???)
I have never been okay in my life. I am I guess at most 30 minutes away from freaking out while cackling on the floor under the best of circumstances! Why do I need to feign sanity now? Everything has been cancelled! Cancel sanity along with all the other shit! Fuck life! Fuck everything! I hate staring at walls and want my comforting routines and nice things to look forward to back!
*screams*
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Date: 2020-03-25 15:54 (UTC)no subject
Date: 2020-03-25 18:32 (UTC)